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| One last cigarette I hope you all had a great time last night (NYE)! I just woke up and I realized I slept in my makeup. It's supposed to be really bad for your skin!! Don't judge me! At least I came back home; my brother passed out on the couch at my uncle's house! |
Last night was surprisingly fun. Yes, I did have to spend it with my family, but I was in a very good mood. I told myself I was going to have a great night and I did.
Confession: I have been making all these New Year's resolutions, but it didn't really hit me until just a few minutes before midnight. I stared at the clock, and I actually doubted myself for a second. Will I be able to accomplish everything I plan on doing?
After all, I am making major changes in my life... Therefore, I should be excited to see what I am truly capable of doing if I do give it my all
There is no point of waiting any longer.
Let's peel the bandaid fast and just get it over with. I decided to put a complete stop to smoking cigarettes. I am not going to "slowly" cut down; it's not worth it. I am not going to put it off any longer, because I believe there are more important things I need to focus on, such as my fitness and health, and my ultimate goal of becoming an actress. I always start with the hardest tasks.
Today is Day 1.
January 1st, 2014
I woke up this morning and poured a cup of coffee. I met my mom on the balcony.My mom, my brother and I are accustomed to starting our day together, and we usually sip our coffee and smoke a couple of cigarettes before we head out. It has become such a therapeutic form of bonding.
This morning wasn't any different. I still sat with her. But, I did not touch a cigarette. YES, it was on my mind! NO, it wasn't easy! I just stared at my pack for so long, that I could've burnt a hole through it.
So I ended up leaving the room because I needed to distract myself:
I filmed the rest of the scenes I needed for my videos…
Lesson of the day: Start with the harder tasks first…
I believe that I can do this. I am not sure how many days it's going to take before it gets easier, but follow my blogs and find out :)
This morning wasn't any different. I still sat with her. But, I did not touch a cigarette. YES, it was on my mind! NO, it wasn't easy! I just stared at my pack for so long, that I could've burnt a hole through it.
So I ended up leaving the room because I needed to distract myself:
I filmed the rest of the scenes I needed for my videos…
Lesson of the day: Start with the harder tasks first…
I believe that I can do this. I am not sure how many days it's going to take before it gets easier, but follow my blogs and find out :)
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